when you are weary of them. when you dont put your faith entirely in them. its like they want to try to win it over or something. and despite my better judgement and my past experiences i always slowly become invovled. because just as you begin to trust them, just as you begin to get attached, just as you lose yourself a little bit in it all is when they seem to decide to not really want anything to do with you. well i am saying you but i mean i am referring to myself.
its like being hesitant about jumping off the edge and into a pool…and just as the last shred of your dry skin leaves the diving board the water turns into shit.
and youre submerged in it. within seconds. yet again.